Have you ever noticed how on a crisp fall day a strong gust
of wind will come and blow through the trees and leaves will just flutter
through the air and come to rest softly on the ground? Then when another gust
of wind comes they scatter farther and farther away until you can’t see them
anymore. Today I sat and watched as a leaf with its bright orange and red
colors came to rest on the road after being blown off of its tree. A few other leaves
had fallen with this one but the thing that made this certain leaf different
was that every time a gust of wind blew or a car drove past it, it didn’t move
like all of the other ones. Only when a large truck or bus passed would the
leaf move and then it would come to rest a few feet away only to stand its
ground until the next big thing came. Observing this leaf made me, in an odd
way, think of people and life. Some people are like that. I like to think that
I’m like that in a way.
I’ve always wondered where these leaves end up. Where their
final destination is and how many places they stop along the way.
I’m at the beginning of my life. I have absolutely no idea
what I want to do with my life. I think and I pray all the time but nothing
comes to mind. Right now I’m content to just wait for God to show me what he
has in mind. It’s not always easy. I have days where I just want to do things
my way and give up. However like the leaf I stand my ground until something big
comes along and scatters me for a little bit and my faith gets shaken. I have
had quite a few of those moments this year. I can honestly say that these
things have made me a better person and have even changed my life. At the beginning of the year I said that this
was going to be a good year and although I can’t say that this was a good year
so far I can say that in a way it has been. I have learned a lot this year ,good
and bad things. One of those things is that God is really in charge.
I feel strongly now that what is meant to be, will be. No matter
how much you fight for or against something. If its meant to be it will happen
at the right time and right place in your life. As much as we’d like to believe,
we can’t control the universe. It’s just not humanly possible. I guess when it
comes down to it all we can do is dream
and believe and hope and have faith that in the end everything will be okay.
You can’t know. You can only believe or not-C.S.Lewis
-Madi
