Leaves

Have you ever noticed how on a crisp fall day a strong gust of wind will come and blow through the trees and leaves will just flutter through the air and come to rest softly on the ground? Then when another gust of wind comes they scatter farther and farther away until you can’t see them anymore. Today I sat and watched as a leaf with its bright orange and red colors came to rest on the road after being blown off of its tree. A few other leaves had fallen with this one but the thing that made this certain leaf different was that every time a gust of wind blew or a car drove past it, it didn’t move like all of the other ones. Only when a large truck or bus passed would the leaf move and then it would come to rest a few feet away only to stand its ground until the next big thing came. Observing this leaf made me, in an odd way, think of people and life. Some people are like that. I like to think that I’m like that in a way.

I’ve always wondered where these leaves end up. Where their final destination is and how many places they stop along the way.

I’m at the beginning of my life. I have absolutely no idea what I want to do with my life. I think and I pray all the time but nothing comes to mind. Right now I’m content to just wait for God to show me what he has in mind. It’s not always easy. I have days where I just want to do things my way and give up. However like the leaf I stand my ground until something big comes along and scatters me for a little bit and my faith gets shaken. I have had quite a few of those moments this year. I can honestly say that these things have made me a better person and have even changed my life.  At the beginning of the year I said that this was going to be a good year and although I can’t say that this was a good year so far I can say that in a way it has been. I have learned a lot this year ,good and bad things. One of those things is that God is really in charge.

I feel strongly now that what is meant to be, will be. No matter how much you fight for or against something. If its meant to be it will happen at the right time and right place in your life. As much as we’d like to believe, we can’t control the universe. It’s just not humanly possible. I guess when it comes down to it  all we can do is dream and believe and hope and have faith that in the end everything will be okay.

 

You can’t know. You can only believe or not-C.S.Lewis

 

-Madi